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23 July 2009 @ 03:33 pm
I'm aliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiive!

Its true ... but since Chris and I can't currently afford internet I don't get online at all more than once or twice a week. To be honest I miss the communicatory part but I don't miss the internet as much as a thought.

However most of my blogging efforts are either the photoblog or 'our'blog and I don't really foresee that changing until our income changes significantly - which isn't likely to happen before this time next year.

I am keeping my lj in hopeful anticipation of that time but if you want to see what I am up to - it is best to check elsewhere for now.

edit: visiting my friends page reminded me that I am in denial about missing the internet ... you guys are so cool, I mean really.
28 April 2009 @ 05:40 pm
I have kittens. One of the MANY neighborhood cats who loves our yard left them here and we brought them in and have been feeding/caring for them. It is good times. A little crazy. Chris is letting us keep one (and he is actually excited.

It feels strange for everyone around me to be moving into exam/summer mode while my life remains much the same.

I feel listless. Marginally unsatisfied - perhaps because since the fire my photography has continued to slide away - and trust me it was not a big enough deal to justify that.

Student loan repayments start soon and in less than a month I will be a married woman. I sometimes try to envision what it will be like for us to finally be married and living together for the rest of our life. I don't make much progress in those thoughts beyond trying to figure out how to decorate the apartment, how we will work out this plan of Chris' to read through the bible together in its entirety this year, and awkward thoughts about "relations" - overall they seem like shallow visualizations.

I like the outside - but not the bug bites.

That is all.
16 April 2009 @ 01:36 pm
On top of the wedding planning crazy (which doesn't really feel stressful but that could be just because I am an excellent procrastinator last week I caused a minor kitchen fire and the stress of dealing with that aftermath has weighed heavily on me. Right now I am ok - but that is because I have a plan of sorts that my landlady loves so we shall just have to see how that pans out.

Chris got his old powerbook fixed up for me so I have a real laptop (versus a portable desktop) and that is exciting. Although my learning curve is a little slow.

I am off from work today and I have a million things I want to do (especially thank you notes and laundry oh yeah and showering) but I wanted to say a little hey.
05 April 2009 @ 08:42 am
Yesterday I had a wedding shower with my friends ... it ended up being just my bridesmaids (sans one), my roommates, and one other friend but we still had fun.

I think it is funny that the two most prolonged discussions that we had were about romantic comedies (and that was kind of a friendly arguement) and wedding decorations - my plans and aspirations.

One monday I get to visit the woman doctor and get a dress fitting - fun times eh?
23 March 2009 @ 03:23 pm

Life and wedding planning are coming along well. Apparently I will be Mrs. Fox in 61 days - that is a little daunting but exciting.

This weekend we were at a shower organized by all of the little ladies who watch Chris grow up in church. It was sweet and surprisingly non-awkward because it was a drop in and for the most part after talking briefly to Chris and I the ladies were content to mingle among themselves and watch the video our Moms put together of our growing up photos. The only kind of awkward part was my sister's decision to let this be the occasion during which she gave me the zigzag martini glasses we registered for (while most of you know my love for fun and frivolous glasses these sweet little southern baptist ladies don't really know me at all - but whatevs)

We have been trying to find a place to live. We found one we both like that is really close to campus, big enough, and basically reasonably priced, but we have a few places left to check out before we commit officially. Life feels weird, transitions are like that I suppose.

I haven't been reading as much as I would like, but here are my recent completions

Feb 17 - Crazy Love by Francis Chan
It was a phenomenal book. I would recommend it unflinchingly because he addresses issues where we are not living as the church ought, but he does it from a place of love. Loving the church and the reader - not just pointing to specks.

Feb 26- Ish by Peter Reynolds
It doesn't really count toward my goal of reading 3 books a month since it is a kids book (in the way curious gorge is not in the way that Narnia is) but it is also wonderful. It is basically about a boy giving himself the freedom to create. I want to own this someday - and read it often.

Mar 10 - Northanger Abbey by Jane Austen
My first reaction is merely to sigh. Jane Austen somehow manages to run the entirety of my emotions through a ringer - even though there is never a moment where you can doubt the ultimate happiness of her main characters. The circumstances are not suspenseful, no one's life is ever in any real jeopardy and yet there were moments were I could not read more than a page or two without having to stop in utter consternation and overflowing emotion (of course I found myself at those pages while in the company of my fiancee and his 18 year old brother and they were not sympathetic to my plight) . Personally I think Jane Austen is brilliant beyond reason. You don't have to agree with me, but I love her.

Keeping up with my photoblog has been going pretty well (largely because I discovered the joy of scheduled posts, which are perfect for people who don't necessarily get online daily) - I am rediscovering how much beauty the world holds and that is lovely. I am even entering a piece from the beginning of the year in a juried show in Anderson - so we shall see how that goes.
25 February 2009 @ 06:43 pm
I have started a new concept/project in my photoblog - it is called "A Week of Hours" and it ultimately stems from my unwillingness not to find use from things .... especially thoughtful gifts

Chris and I are starting to get back on target with keeping up the wedding blog (and sometimes I even write about things other than my dress)
21 February 2009 @ 07:53 am
The wedding shower last weekend was fun, low key and fun. AND shocker of all shockers I got all of my thank you notes out yesterday (it helps that I only had to send about 10 and that it was one of three things I had the energy to attempt while I felt like puking death on Thursday).

It is funny how living with people (particularly four other women - just as crazy as me but all in our own unique way) makes you realize quirks that you never knew you had. For instance, it turns out that I really can not stand for cups to be stored with the lip down on the cupboard. Not that this has come up recently - I just think it is interesting and sooooooooo good for Chris and I that I have had a chance to learn some of these things now (so I will actually for really believe that our household disagreements are not all because he is wrong).

Also I have realized that I am rather non-confrontational and a little passive aggressive. For some reason I just thought myself to be great at bringing up things that bothered me (probably because I am loud and after 2.5 years as an RA I know the "right" ways to deal with conflict so why wouldn't I use them?) but I have learned when given an unconscious choice I bottle my emotions, strike back in sneaky/passive ways, and then blow up all at once (usually the day or two before that special monthly time). All of the things I have spent years urging others not to do.

So I may not have liked His Needs Her Needs on the first read through (ok I didn't at all really) but I have to say I think it will be effective at bringing up things that maybe Chris and I wouldn't want to (or realize we needed to) talk about. And since that is what I think the point of pre-marital counseling is I am ok with not agreeing with everything he says - in fact that disagreement may actually make the book a more effective discussion tool.

On Wednesday I had a lady in the drive thru very emphatically tell me I look like Kate Winslet in the Titanic. It was sweet. I didn't really know what to say when she kept going on after I thanked her, but it was sweet.

Chris and I are going to G-vages today to spend some time with his family. Then tonight while the boys are out suit shopping his Mom and I will hang out and watch Mama Mia. Should be good times.

I finished Crazy Love this week and LOVED IT! I am re-reading that one (sooner rather than later).

I now have a 'grown-up' tea set and I can't tell you how excited that makes me.
12 February 2009 @ 08:28 pm
The place where I love to contra has updated their site ... its intense. Looking at it made me miss contra something fierce. Hopefully I can go again soon.

I had my first paying [photo] job since graduation today. The $30 I was paid almost doubled my checking account ...

Now I get to go collect my not-so-little-baby-sister from the airport and this weekend I get to dress up for a tea party with the women in my family. 

10 February 2009 @ 12:40 pm
Why is it that the music we (this we is of course applicable to everyone by virtue of applying to Catie and I) listened to in middle school is full of fond memories despite middle school being almost innately and unavoidably miserable?

Today Andre explained how much the way you light your cigarette changes its taste ... who knew? Too bad that is knowledge I have no use for (other than to post it here so that you too may know something useless).

I am loving my Regina Spektor station on Pandora.

I decided that at some point in my life I would like to see a performance by the New York City ballet. I don't have a bucket list but if I did, this would be on it.

I have made it my goal to update my photoblog daily. It is my way of pretending I am using my degree.

I have also made it my goal to read at least three books a month since graduation. I haven't precisely succeeded so far but I have read

Dec 16 - Porn Nation by Michael Leahy
An interesting read where one man discusses how he progressed from porn to sexual addiction and the havoc that played on his life.

Dec 24 - An Acceptable Time by Madeline L'Engle
It was a good bit of fiction. L'Engle has interesting ways of playing with time and seems to have an awkward relationship with the idea of the noble savage because on the one hand she refutes it, then tries to create the one exception to it with the People of the Wind. A general trend I have seen in her fiction is that she seems torn between ideas that don't seem (at least to me) to fully play out together, but they are still great stories.

Jan 5 - The Four Loves by CS Lewis
Of course I loved it. As the title suggests it is a look at the different ways we love, where those loves come from and how they affect us. It raised good questions and answered unspoken anxieties. I like Lewis so it is no surprise that I liked it.

Jan 22 - Confessions of the Ugly Stepsister by Gregory Maguire
I LOVED IT SO MUCH! Oh malanta, I personally think he is a genius in the way he crafts a shockingly convincing and realistic back story to one of the most well known and re-fitted fairy tales. It was phenomenal, set in Holland among painters during tulip mania. I really can't stop geeking out about it, I plan to re-read it soon. Although maybe I should just watch the movie '-P

Feb 4 - The Voice of Matthew by Laura Winner
Winner translates/paraphrases the gospel of Matthew (the gospel written for Jews) from her perspective as a Messianic Jew as part of the voice project (which recognizes that the bible is filled with books written by different people and is trying to translate the books in a way that allows that individuality to remain). It was good to just sit and let the story of Jesus soak in with new language and thinking about nuances I hadn't previously.

Feb 8 - His Needs, Her Needs by Willard Harely Jr.
This is the book Chris and I were given for premarital counseling. I gulped it down in part because I didn't like it at all in the beginning. I am still not sure that I like it, but I think it will be a good place to begin discussions and it surely brings up some of the awkward and/or unpleasant things that Chris and I might not have gotten around to talking about on our own (which is kind of the point of premarital counseling).

Right now I am reading "Batman and Philosophy" and Francis Chan's "Crazy Love" and I am loving them both ....
28 January 2009 @ 11:08 pm
Life feels so weird right now. I feel like I am in between everything and I have a million things to do and nothing at all - all at once.

I finished "Confessions of the Ugly Stepsister" last week and I loved it.

I finally starting reading the book Chris gave me for my birthday (Batman and Philosophy) and I am loving that as well.

It is my goal to read at least three books a month. In addition to posting a photo a day on my photoblog, publishing my portfolio, planning the wedding and being a non-waste-of-flesh roommate.

Catie thinks I need to learn how to relax - I think my 4 hour nap today would suggest that I know more than enough about such things.